I participated in another lab study again. Subject 12 is my title. However, this time it was not invasive - no muscle taken from my quads that I will never get back. No scars to remember the process by, only a long-sleeve tee from the RehabNeuroLab at UVic.
It was a success. Certainly uncomfortable at times; time really does seem to stand still over 7 minute intervals where every second is calculated and punctuated by nerve stimulation of both of your soleus' (the muscle running underneath your gastrocnemeus, the calf).
My advice: probably not a good idea to go and attempt hot yoga later in the day after your leg muscles have been overstimulated for 40 minutes. Don't be surprised when your legs fail you.
The many things, like this study, that I have been getting myself into and putting myself through over my time as an undergrad. certainly characterize my attribute of being a wanderer.
But I'm really feeling the pressure and angst now to figure myself out. Who do I want to be? Where I am going? Because my life right now has a very unknown path. I have no idea what I'm setting myself up for. And although it should be exciting to let everything fall where it may, I cannot shake the senses of doubt and failure that certain individuals have been throwing my way.
I also can't help but feel that I really am "getting older" now, that life with all its inconsistencies, let-downs, anguish, and brutality is starting to rear its head. Friends moving. Friends dying. Friends lost. Tough love. Grudges. Enemies. Why? I'm learning how to deal.
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So far you are crazy!! You know this I believe. But to allow electro-pulses throug yur legs for reasons that are non-medical is crazy. And then doing hot yoga, which you know I think is crazy in itself.
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